A brand new start.

It's been so many months since I last blog. Ever thought of deleting this blog. but somehow this blog have too much of memories thru out these few years.

Well, its June. And time files.
Susposely I thought May will be a good month for me. Like it's my birthday month, I got to see my fav. idol Show luo. & I thought I could have a big surprise from my boyfriend like what he had told me. But, things goes so wrong.
& now, my boyfriend and I had already broke off. We've been together for 16months.
Well, at first I really feel so lost & puzzled. I don't know what went wrong. We didn't fight, quarrels or have any disagreement. But somehow my ex- boyfriend left me a long text on a Thursday night. Telling me his feeling for me had fade. I was so lost at that time. We were happily chatting on phone the previous night. And the next day I received his msg telling me his feeling fade. Things happened so sudden.
But at last, I found out the main reason why he broke off w me. One of it is, he knee another girl.

Okay, it's been 2weeks my ex had left me. 2 week & how to cover up this whole load of 16months I've sacrificed so much. Starting, I really can't take it. I feel like dying. But I realized, Is not that t move on. Everything just need time. & I'm really moving on. So ya, don't worry, I'm perfectly alright. (:

But , sometime I really giving up my life. I just feel so tired each and everyday. I feel that I'm a dirty biatch. Ya. Really. I really don't what I want in life. I don't know how today no. I don't know how to reject people. I hate myself being so naive, being so guidable. & I'm someone who easily fall for someone.
If a guy tell me he love me. Sweet talk with me. I know its not the truth. But I just stupidly let myself in, & make myself suffer. I really don't know what I want in life. ):

& recently I met someone. I know everything. But I just choose to believe him. And I don't know why.
It's kind of miserable now. Becoz, I can't say everything out that I've been thinking eversince that day. I want to say, but something just stop me. Bcoz , I know even how much I say also make no different. So yea. Srsly no point for me to say out how fucking hell I'm feeling.
I reallly don't know sia. I hate the feelin I having now. Pissed.
Tammai chan chawp khun? Chan Mai roo! OMG. TAMMAI?

Okay, it's like 3.05pm! I'm going to sleep alr. Lol, besti is sleeping like a pig now. Hehehe.

Byeee